an epiphany

School is still pretty horrible.

There really isn't much to look forward to. The thought of exams and leaving c-one is pretty heartbreaking. I never really adjust to hanging around new people comfortably quickly and when i think about me being the lonely girl walking around the canteen by myself in my new class next year it kinda makes me sad.

Finally had an art lesson in the art room yesterday after so many weeks and mr tan was talking to us about our sa2 art assignment. It was themed around self-identity and it left me really dumbfounded. I mean really, what is self-identity?

According to thefreedictionary.com it means the conscious recognition of the self as having a unique identity

And lately i've felt like i haven't had any of that. I don't feel like i'm going anywhere in life. The only thing i'm living for now if probably just school and i hate it so...loads of questions been in and out of my head!

This whole art-self identity thing didn't really get me thinking about what subjects i wanted to take next year (i've been really undecisive) but today while i was chilling with andrea, diana and lingxiu in the canteen i had an epiphany after lingxiu suddenly asked me what subjects i wanted to take next year.

At that very moment i just felt that i really really wanted to take art next year.

Art vs literature has been going through my mind and i was always 'fighting' for literature to win (for some weird reason) but yes, an epiphany is an epiphany and i guess my decision is more or less made. Let's just see if i can even make it in terms of results to get what i want.

Time to go download the load of science slides from asknlearn and properly plan everything for computer mastery.

ttfn (: